we’re selling a few pray for ian tshirts to benefit our two little guys that we sponsor in uganda and zambia. all proceeds will go to either their school or church.
http://prayforian.bigcartel.com/
“i will abundantly bless her provisions; i will satisfy her poor with bread”
God might not heal me until heaven but I’m grateful even though, because he saved me.
He has been everything that I’ve lost.
– Ian
Ian has been on set with vinegar hill the past few days as they work on their first full length film. Hope to post more photos of ian getting to watch what he loves.
He has a right arm that houses two metal plates and his mind has no control over getting it to move. So it stays still for most of the day unless being stretched. His right knee is fused in place at a slight angle and is beyond full repair because the damage is so deep. He has deep, deep scars on his scalp, his left arm also has plates, and he can’t tell you what he ate by the time I’m washing his dishes. Everything he does is slower and harder than it used to be. But he is the happiest person that I know and he is the most forgiving husband I could ask for. He never speaks to me in anger and always wants to spend time with me. And when I look at his scarred body from that dumb accident, thoughts drift to heaven and his waiting treasures, for I’m sure there will be many.
Thank you, always.
Larissa
thank you for your prayers.
luke 7:47 therefore I tell you, her sins which are many, are forgiven – for she loved much. But he who is forgiven little, loves little.
thinking on this passage during this cold Pennsylvania morning, snuggled with our bible and a cup of tea, i glanced up at the photo above our blue piano. all of my bridesmaids, smiling and loving much because they have been forgiven much. the girl in white, me, i think that i have been forgiven the most. what i was before i was saved and before i knew most of these girls, was depraved. but because jesus died for me, and because god now sees me as he sees jesus, completely washed white as snow, i am able to love much. and that’s why these girls stood with me, along with guests at our wedding, and that is why we are able to love much. they all continue to pursue hard after god, for they know they have been forgiven much. their prayers and love carried us to that day in august. we weren’t saved because we love much – we love much because we were forgiven so very much, forgiven more than our hearts know.
i want this to be a mark of our marriage – loving much. not because ian or i deserve it, or deserve a marriage like that. but because it should be a natural response flowing out of the forgiveness we have received.
thank you, always, and for loving much.
l
“hey larissa,” he yelled from the living room.
“what?”
“i’m uncomfortable.”
“can you ask caleb to help you,” as i prepared for tomorrow’s dinner.
“caleb, i’m uncomfortable.”
“one second,” said Caleb.
“one second,” he said, clearly keeping track of time for caleb.
this repeated probably five times – ian yelling from the living room that he was uncomfortable or that he needed his wifey. and all that i could see in my mind was walking into the hospital room the first time he was taken out of bed and put in a seated position, back in 2006, back in the ICU.
he looked….awful. i remember that being the first time that my then-boyfriend truly looked completely disabled, vegetative. and what made it awful was that i remember it being the first time that i realized he truly might not ever be the same again. i remember being with mary, and they had him in a special chair, with a special helmet on, and he was different.
“bless the lord, oh my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy” psalm 103
ian will know this in the fullest measure in heaven, but we have tasted a glimpse of healing here. and while i know in my heart that my hope is not that ian was shown mercy and has improved, and that at any moment either of us could become sick or disabled, we get to enjoy these moments for the gifts that they are.
“forget not all his benefits”
always,
larissa
“Before me, as behind, god is, and all is well.”
Praying that our souls would be well.
I know of a Name,
A beautiful Name,
That unto a Babe was given;
The stars glittered bright
Throughout that glad night,
And angels praised God in Heav’n.
