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hope

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“ian, you bring a lot of hope to people.”

“do i bring hope to you?”

pause, because i wanted to hear more.

“why do you ask?”

“because that’s the most important one.”

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walk by thirty

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#walkbythirty – a vow with our cousin for Ian to be walking by our 30th birthdays, 18 months from now. to celebrate, we’ll have a monster party with a husband/cousin who can walk.
follow his progress with #walkbythirty.

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the mix

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I was telling him my heart, explaining the difficulty I was having in my mind. I wanted something, something that wasn’t guaranteed to me in the bible, but something God could very well give us.

I was getting stuck on the mixture of knowing God didn’t promise it to me and having faith that He could give it.
“You need to stop worrying about the mixture part,” he said. “And focus on the faith.”
Perfect. Perfect for my little heart that was trying so hard to sort instead of just believe.
In a few words, he lead me back. Back to faith in the God that saved us from our sins.
So thankful for Ian. So thankful that I’m part of Ian’s incredible story. Pray for Ian.

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for the days that are too much

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“Your keys are already in your car,” Mary told me as I left the house. It didn’t phase me, until I stepped outside to the sound of my car running, the vents turned all the way up to melt the frost and warm my bones. 

“You are loved,” she told me.
The gesture that brought tears helped me to start a day on gratefulness. Yet it grew into one of those days that felt like too much, like him not getting breakfast until after 10 and no time for a lunch break- instead distractedly eating an apple as I sat at my desk, saddened when the first bite revealed a rotten, brown core. Or then the arm brace he’s supposed to wear at night keeps him awake in pain, forgetting to call the doctor back, and not getting pills ready for the morning. All on a night when my body needs to be out the door at 6:30 am. in a few short hours.
These are the days that feel like too much, that this isn’t what I asked for because stress brought from the little just reminds me of the bigger losses I have.
But then there are the sweet gifts, like the new book in the mail that will show me god. The three hours by the fire with a girlfriend and his smile when I come into the room late. 
The fire and the conversation with her and the staying up late with him is worth it. Because those are the moments where I get to live and breathe.
Those are the moments where I see God filling me up, filling my emptiness.

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my love

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5’6 and she’s filled with love for me. she’s beautiful and she loves me. I love her, everything about her, and there’s nothing else that I want to say about it. because its not every day you love somebody this much. 

Larissa, I love you.
– Ian

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it changes

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oh dear summer, how good you’ve been to us. filling our days with babies and lake water, leaving little room in our hearts for emptiness 
yet it needs to end to make way for autumn and I hope our little hearts can survive past the days that keep us alive.

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so let it be

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Oh, it is sweet to be able to say, “My Lord, if for other reasons I need not suffer, yet if I can honor thee more by suffering, and if the loss of my earthly all will bring thee glory, then so let it be. I refuse the comfort, if it comes in the way of thine honor.” O that we thus walked more in the footsteps of our Lord, cheerfully enduring trial for his sake, promptly and willingly putting away the thought of self and comfort when it would interfere with our finishing the work which he has given us to do. Great grace is needed, but great grace is provided.


– CH Spurgeon

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Keep me in your prayers

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Please pray for therapy – that I would be motivated and willing to work hard. I want to work hard because God has worked hard for me. 

Ian

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our fathers

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happy day to our father’s. we’ve been raised by two good men and 
consider that to be one of the greatest gifts of all.

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