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Traumatic brain injury. It still doesn’t seem like something that should describe someone in my life. I ran into a co-worker at Walmart today who had never met Ian, and I wondered what she thought when I said “This is my boyfriend, Ian.” I wondered what she was saying to her boyfriend as they walked away from us. Was she trying to figure out what was wrong with Ian? Was she guessing what type of illness he had? Was she feeling badly for us?

I was sitting next to Ian’s bed tonight looking at this picture of us, wondering if we will ever look this happy again. Life was so easy then. A picture of me smiling at Ruby Tuesday with Ian mockingly imitating my smile. I wonder if we’ll ever go on a date where we can have conversation over our meal. Will we ever be able to leave Indiana without a caregiver coming with us? Can we ever take a weekend trip together? Will I ever get a simple voicemail on my phone from Ian again? Will he ever make me a birthday dinner again? Will he ever have a chance to buy that ring that he was shopping for?

There are so many things that I desire to do with Ian again. The simplest things that I always took for granted. Now I’d give anything to do them again.

Constantly praying for that end….

Laris

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Enrolled among the righteous

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In Psalm 69:28, the writer’s prayer is for retribution on his enemies. “…let them not be enrolled among the righteous.” That phrase jumped out at me not because I want the same for my enemies (if I have any) but because despite my status as God’s enemy He enrolled me among the righteous. I was the one hating God, and if I had had the power I would have been seeking to destroy God. Still, he enrolled me among the righteous. He put my name in his book allowing me fellowship with God from now till eternity.

I’m grateful for what God has done for me, and I’m grateful that God has done the same for Ian. Ian is enrolled among the righteous, because he placed his confidence not in his own righteousness but in Christ’s. That fact is so much more meaningful to me now, for some reason. I was grateful for his faith before the wreck, but it means so much more now. I want somehow to help him, but I know somehow he must still experience that fellowship. I can rest to some degree in that knowledge.

I still want him to talk to us and tell us what he’s experiencing.

Pray for Ian.

Steve

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Laughter

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I was thinking today of something that Ian used to say to me a lot. “I never want to take life too seriously.” Ian wanted to be able to have joy in everything, to laugh at himself frequently, and never take himself too seriously. He always wanted to be able to laugh at other people, usually at their expense.

I’ve tried to live by Ian’s example and live that out through this trial. Ian wouldn’t want me to take this affliction so seriously that I couldn’t laugh at things. And I believe that God is humoring Ian through this. I trust that God is entertaining Ian’s thoughts and is bringing things into his life and mind that he can laugh at, because it is something Ian enjoys so much. I’m sure that Ian has many, many, many hilarious stories saved up in his mind that he will write some day. I can only imagine how many secrets people have told him in confidence over the past year and a half while they were visiting him……:)

Concluding, I would give approximately 2 million bucks right now to hear Ian laugh. His laugh is what won my mom over, and it’s definitely something that I miss. I’d pay the same amount to see him smile too, which is something that I’ve been encouraging him to do.

Maybe, just maybe, it will happen tomorrow………

Larissa

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Speaking

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I have been very encouraged lately to continue in prayer that God would allow Ian to speak words to us. Lately, each night that he sits on the mat, he uses his voice. And it’s always when I ask him to. Tonight was the longest that I’ve ever heard him use his voice and I could tell that he was working so hard. While he was doing it, I was praying that God would please help him to say words. I got so excited thinking that maybe God would answer my prayer right then and Ian would say my name, or his name, or anything reall! I was anxiously waiting for God to answer. He didn’t, at least not in a way that I could hear with my ears, but He did allow Ian to speak in the way that he knows how to now.

So let’s continue in prayer for God to give Ian use of words again. We have been given so many examples of God answering prayer in Ian’s healing process. I read this Spurgeon quote to Ian the other night and we were both encouraged:
“We scarcely open the Bible before we read, “Then began men to call upon the name of the Lord;” and just as we are about to close the volume, the “Amen” of an earnest supplication meets our ear. Instances are plentiful. Here we find a wrestling Jacob—there a Daniel who prayed three times a day—and a David who with all his heart called upon his God…. We have multitudes of commands, and myriads of promises. What does this teach us, but the sacred importance and necessity of prayer? We may be certain that whatever God has made prominent in his Word, he intended to be conspicuous in our lives. If he has said much about prayer, it is because he knows we have much need of it. So deep are our necessities, that until we are in heaven we must not cease to pray. Dost thou want nothing? Then, I fear thou dost not know thy poverty. Hast thou no mercy to ask of God? Then, may the Lord’s mercy show thee thy misery! A prayerless soul is a Christless soul.”

Thank you, always. And that simple phrase again: pray for Ian.

Larissa

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The Holidays

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(New Year’s Eve two years ago)
Ian had a very busy weekend with a lot of his family visiting. We don’t have any major reports- just that Ian continues to work hard in therapy and at eating. My prayer is still that the Lord soon teaches him how to speak again. We just want to communicate with Ian.

Thank you, always, for praying

Larissa

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From him comes my salvation

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For God alone my soul waits in silence; from him comes my salvation. He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be greatly shaken. Ps 62:1-2

No matter what the trouble, this is the prescription: whether it’s inner turmoil, an external threat, or an ongoing physical and emotional trial I’m experiencing, my soul must wait in silence for him. No matter what the difficulty, salvation comes from God. My questions and my struggle and my inner turmoil might even be related to his actions, but salvation still comes from him. I have to cling to him as my rock in the storm. I have to hide in him as my fortress in the battle against sin and faithlessness. With him as my rock and my fortress, I shall not be greatly shaken. Though I might be shaken some, I shall not be greatly shaken.

Lord, let Ian recognize the prescription, too. Help him to wait in his silence for you. Help him to daily recognize that salvation comes from you.

Steve

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Wednesday

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Ian seems to be feeling much better. He went to therapy today and was a little sluggish but was working hard. We had a nice Christmas yesterday- it’s wonderful to have him home this year. God was very kind in that Ian felt much better yesterday for opening gifts and all of the other activities.

Thank you for your prayers

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Happy Christmas Eve………

maybe next year Ian will be talking

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Stomach Flu

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Ian has had the stomach flu all weekend. Pray that he would have relief soon.

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“you gave me this breath and you gave me this stength”

I can speak for Mary and say that both of us have been encouraged lately by how hard Ian is working to come back to us. He fights his way through therapy every day and he continues to do what we ask him to do. He ate a lot of food this week. He sat in a real office chair at dinner with us last night. He sat up on his mat for an hour last night without using a bar to balance, so it was all his own strength. He read a sentence that I had written and then did what the sentence said.

Even with these little glimpses that Ian is getting better, this is still a very hard time of year. We’re been reminding ourselves though of where we were last year at Christmas. Last year was spent in The Children’s Institute so we are greatly blessed to have Ian home with us now.

Thank you for all of your prayers. There may be fewer posts over the next few days, so enjoy your holidays!

Larissa

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