ten things our disabled marriage has taught us about God

2. God always wins. If what we just said is true, that God created marriage to reflect Jesus and the church, then we have every reason from scripture to believe that God will protect our marriage.

But that is a battle to believe. I especially have felt this battle in my heart too many times. Sometimes it seems as though every part of my brain is telling me that our marriage won’t last, or that Ian won’t be able to care for me in the way he wants, or that it was a mistake to get married in the first place. And those days are so hard because what’s in my mind seems like truth. Sometimes it’s so hard to distinguish between the thoughts in my head and the truths in scripture that God calls me to live by. It’s not always easy to believe that God will be faithful to our marriage because it doesn’t always feel that way.

From Ian – I’ve seen that to be true, that God always wins. God has been faithful in helping me overcome my brain injury. He’s faithful, and everyone can see that.

We are not theologians by any stretch of the imagination. Recently we were at a dinner party and our friends began laughing about some of the bizarre stories in the old testament. I quickly said “Does anyone else feel like they really don’t know anything about the Old Testament?” And Ian quickly said “Me!”

So we tread lightly when talking about things that we don’t completely understand ourselves, but over the past few months, I do believe that I specifically have been given a deeper understanding of how much Satan hates marriage.

As we wrote our book, the very truths I was proclaiming about God in my writing were the very same truths that were impossible to believe in the current day. As I would write about God’s faithfulness in allowing me to keep enjoying Ian through a coma, in present day I would become so ungrateful for Ian and mad at him for his brain injury. The truths I was writing about became direct areas of battle in my heart.

The same holds true for speaking at events or after sharing our story with someone. We do know from the Bible that Satan exists. BUT, what I tell myself over and over and over again is simply, “God always wins.” God always wins. I do not need to fear Satan or myself or my feelings and what they’ll do to my marriage because God always wins.

From Ian – He’s been faithful to us.